Resurrection - Nicol Sponberg

I'm at a loss for words, there's nothing to say
I sit in silence wondering what led me to this place
How did my heart become so lifeless and cold
Where did the passion go?

When all my efforts seem like chasing wind
I've used up all my strength and there's nothing left to give
I've lost the feeling and I'm numb to the core
I can't fake it anymore.

Here I am at the end I'm in need of resurrection
Only You can take this empty shell and raise it from the dead
What I've lost to the world what seems far beyond redemption
You can take the pieces in Your hand and make me whole again, again

You speak and all creation falls to its knees
You raise Your hand and calm the waves of the raging sea
You have a way of turning winter to spring
Make something beautiful out of all this suffering

Here I am once again I'm in need of resurrection
Only You can take this empty shell and raise it from the dead
What I've lost to the world what seems far beyond redemption
You can take the pieces in Your hand and make me whole again, again

You have a way of turning winter to spring
Make something beautiful out of all this suffering

Excuse me while I cough out a lung

I have this little annoyance in my throat that won't go away. This morning I was taking a test - a pretty hard test. I'm sure everyone in there was stressed and trying really hard to focus on what they were doing. Then all of a sudden you hear this loud noise that distracts your thinking. I'm sure everyone was like, "What is that annoying noise over in the front left corner of the room.?" It was me and my annoying cough! It's not just a little "a-ha" cough anymore, it's a deep, room shaking A-HA-A-HA. To top it off, my nose was running. Poor girl sitting next to me. I'm sure she was like, "Whoa, who is this girl that won't shut up?" I would have been annoyed if I were sitting next to someone like me this morning.

This afternoon I was sitting in class and had an attack. For the last 20 minutes I could not stop coughing. Normally I would just excuse myself and leave so as not to annoy everyone around me - or the whole classroom. But I was sitting right in the center of the row in a room that was poorly designed. The rows are so close together that you can't get out if anyone is sitting in the chairs next to you. So had I tried to get out, I would have knocked everyone out as I exited the room...while coughing a lung out. I'm sure everyone would have appreciated that. Yeah right.

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is coming up and I am definitely happy about that though I won't really have a break from school. As of right now, my final project in photography is due the day I get back. Oh but wait - I'm not going home for Thanksgiving so I guess it really doesn't matter, does it? My parents will be in Africa for Thanksgiving...thanks for taking me! (I know you're reading this mom and dad...no hard feelings - Christmas, right?) I'm juggling a couple of options for Thanksgiving but one of them is definitely not cooking a turkey!

I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I don't get to see Matthew over Thanksgiving. What's that you say? Don't want to see Matthew? Strange I know. But if all goes well this weekend with soccer, Matthew will be in the NCAA final four tournament over Thanksgiving. As much as I would love to see him, I would much rather him be playing soccer that weekend.

So yeah, Thanksgiving - the first year I'm fending for myself on a holiday...just Sara, Randy and me...and we're thankful for each other!

It's good to be in love.



And that's all I have to say right now.

You just gotta keep livin' man, L-I-V-I-N.

I laughed in the face of death last night. Ok I just fudged the truth a little. Actually I screamed like a girl in the face of death last night. Wait, I am a girl. So it works...

Last night I went to move Sara's straightener from the floor in my bedroom to the bathroom. When I picked it up, there was a short in it. Orange sparks flew everywhere and inches from my face. No - I think one was closer than inches. There was a loud noise and all the lights went out. I screamed and jumped back into the bed trying to figure out what just happened. Then the room started to smell terrible.

I went to flip the switch to turn the lights back on. When I went back to my room, my heart was racing. I was so scatterbrained after it happened that I am pretty sure I got electrocuted...just a little. All I can really say is that it just isn't my time. So I'm just going to keep on livin' man, L-I-V-I-N!!