Nightmare

My heart is aching. I am living through a nightmare. How can I turn this around?

The Lord is carrying me right now because I can't walk - not on my own. In my mind, He is holding me, just like my father used to hold me when I was little. After I fell off my bike, I would run to him and he would lift me up into his arms, put my head on his shoulder with one hand, and with the other, hold my back and press my little body close to him. In the sweetest voice he would say, "Shh, Haley, you're alright." He could always calm me down. I feel like I have fallen off of my bike again - a much larger bike and God is holding me, his little girl, as tight as he can. "Shh, Haley, you're alright." (And yes, I can hear James Earl Jones.)

To my friends - I am so blessed by every single one of you. Thank you for always being there for me, for the little phone calls to say hello and for always being there for me. I thank you also for being there for Sara. Without her, I would be lost.

To my family - I think we have the best family in the world. I love the love we have for one another and I love how we all stick together in times of trial. We are stronger together than alone...I think we get that.

To Matthew - You are so special to me. Thank you for your support and for caring for me. God has blessed my life in so many ways just by putting you in it. Without you and your encouragement, I would never have been able to do something of the things I have, or said some of the things I have. I am so thankful for you.

That's it for me tonight.